Saturday, November 17, 2012

Dying To Self

For the past year I have been on a long hard journey of letting go of controling my life and letting God be in control of everything I am going through. Has it been easy? No, I still find myself trying to control outcomes and circumstances but I realize that to be in His perfect will I have to let go and let God. Easier said than done but I am learning day by day it is the best thing to do.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Broken But Not Destroyed

"You may be broken...but... you have not been destroyed. He HEALS broken hearts and lives...No matter where you are in your life today it is the right place to make a change for tomorrow."




Today I find myself broken, at rock bottom, feeling like I have no where to turn but I know I have one person I can trust and turn to in my heartbreak and that is God. The things that have been happening to me are my test so when I rise up out of my ashes I will have a testimony to share with others that are hurting. Do I want to keep going through this test? Of course not I'd like to take a short cut or get the cliff notes but I haven't been so lucky. I have to persevere through this so I can come up out of it once and for all and to the next level God has for me. I have learned the past 30 days that He's in control not me and when I try to control the situation it gets worse not better so I have been hitting my head upon a rock for too long and I now release my entire life over to Him to do as He pleases. I might not like it at first or agree but I have come to realize through all my hurts that He always has my best interest at heart and I need to trust Him completely and go where He tells me to go and do what He tells me to do. I am looking forward to a new year and a new me living in God's will for my life not mine!!

Monday, November 28, 2011

Deployment Day


My oldest son was deployed today for 6 months to Afghanistan. I knew this was a possibility when he joined the Army but at the same time didn't think it would happen so close to Christmas having just celebrated Thanksgiving with my youngest son and daughter missing my husband who is in Kuwait and my second son who is stationed in Germany, while Joshua and his wife Christina are in Texas the holiday brought about a sadness I never have felt. But I know my God is a protector and will bring my son back safely to his wife and his family. I am counting down the days until I can see my husband as well this Christmas is going to be hard with everyone gone but I know God has a plan for all He does.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Graduation Day


Last Friday April 15, 2011 my oldest son graduated from Army Basic Training at Fort Sill, OK. We are very proud of him and younger brother who graduated in December 2010 and is now stationed in Vilseck, Germany. I want to say I am proud to be their mom and thank God everyday for their safety.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


Developing Peace
"Acquaint now yourself with Him (agree with God and show yourself to be conformed to His will) and be at peace; by that (you shall prosper and great) good shall come to you.
~Job 22:21

How do I develop peace? This is a question I find myself asking over and over. I love "Isaiah 26:3 You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You." I want to have perfect peace the peace that comes from turning over my will to the Lord and letting him control every aspect of my life, which at times I have to admit is hard. So starting today this is an area that I want to work on and try to develop. Right now in my life I have issues that God is trying to have me surrender and I am still trying to control. I want to be able to say yes Lord you know what's best in this particular area and leave it be, but then my mind starts working overtime and I try to be in control which in the end does not get me anywhere but right back to where I started. Today is the beginning of a new chapter in my life where I begin to let God be in control of my life and guide me where he wants me to go!

Monday, May 24, 2010

Let It Go!

By: T.D. Jakes


There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you

this! When people can walk away from you let them walk. I don't want you

to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling

you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I

mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never

tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made

manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt

they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you

because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you,

you can't make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their

part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in

your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something... I've got

the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in

good-bye.. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know

whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes

too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was

never intended for your life, then you need to.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ........

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your

worth......

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you.

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or

talents LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level

in Him.........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship.....

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help

themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed ............

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling

yourself and God is saying 'take your hands off of it,' then you need

to.......

LET IT GO!!!

'The Battle is the Lord's!'

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Practicing The Fruit of The Spirit

Galatians 5:22,23a “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.”

"Love is the Christlike reaction to people’s malice.
Joy is the Christlike reaction to depressing circumstances.
Peace is the Christlike reaction to troubles, threats, and invitations to anxiety.
Patience is the Christlike reaction to all that is maddening.
Kindness is the Christlike reaction to all that are unkind.
Goodness is the Christlike reaction to bad people and bad behavior.
Faithfulness and gentleness are the Christlike reactions to lies and fury.
Self-control is the Christlike reaction to every situation that goads you to lose your cool and hit out.
So much of the fruit of the Spirit has to do with our reactions to people and to our circumstances in life. The fruit helps us choose what to do when situations or people seem not to be moving as quickly or acting as we would like them to."